To the Moms of Incarcerated Sons....

I stop in, read a few topics and it's too sad so I go....but I am here.....feeling everyone's pain and understanding. Some people benefit from ongoing communications, like talking to a friend on the phone. It's great if 'talking' helps. Like I am in real life, I tend to shut people out and keep things internal. Reading about all the mom's sons just rehashes the ugly fact that we have lost our sons, they are not here where they should be, they are gone from us , we have no control, we sit, we wait, we cry, we fear, we cry some more, wait for word, wait for that call, visit or letter, anything just to connect with them, to cling to just another small piece of them . Consumed with such disbelief and pain. Carrying our sons within us for 9 months, glancing in their eyes, smelling that freshness of a newborn baby, the innocence, the profound love, we were in awe of our little wonders and never thought of what would become them one day , It is heartbreaking. So it is easier me to handle it if I don't 'talk' about it. I prefer to sit in the shadows and just read the updates, see how the moms sons are doing, who is going to court, who is getting out, the visits and all. Wishing peace to everyone.